Life scars from two thousand 18

I should’ve posted it Last January 2018

2018 teached me a lot
What I have learned so far ..

1. Most Important Have time for God always.

2. You need to be mindful about yourself how you see yourself reflects on how others sees you .

3. Don’t undervalue yourself know your strengths not to compare it to other people but to look how far you’ve become to end up undervalued.

4. Don’t depend your happiness/clarity to a person, work , relationship. Nobody’s permanent. Find it , look for it. What you need is peace something that is long lasting. I find it in Jesus

.5. Happiness is just a feeling and if you chase feelings you know it would’nt last. ¯\(ツ)/¯ meh

6. Look for a lasting commitment. We will get old someday , lose our shape, beauty is fading people will get bored to your face — it’s the harsh truth.

😀 😀 What will you do about it ?

7. People will get impressed once or twice and get bored . Why waste, time to impress them ?

8. Be true to yourself / be who you needed to be Surround and be with people who needs you. Have a purpose each day .

9. Teach — teach people imparting someone what you have. By giving, you didn’t know you are acquiring more . Teach especially in children ” I am teaching kids to play music instrument I find it fulfilling. You’ll never know what potential they can have , someday .

10. Be a part of someones success– Don’t ignore a needy if you have something you can offer.

11. Don’t let go of long term commitment. For temporary happiness

12.Set a goal- If you feel tired , rest. Don’t push yourself so hard —

13. If you feel sad it’s just a feeling it come and go eat something or do something worth while.

14. People are continuously bored it is not your responsibility to entertain them .unless you are an entertainer I’m sure you don’t wanna be like that.

15. Look inside you seek what you need for improvement.16. It’s all in your mind – Some times we hoard trash inside our head

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The Friction tells it all

Ever asking why things seems so hard for you to go through ? And while for other it’s like effortlessly flowing perfectly.

Like you often questioning how life is unfair , you prayed hard you fought hard , you sacrificed a lot but in the end; things are slipping out from your grasp.

Indeed as what the scripture says Life is unfair ;

John 16 :33 “I have told you these things, so that in me you may have peace. In this world you will have trouble. But take heart! I have overcome the world.”

He did not state ,” Hey My child You can make it on yourself !,

He said Take heart ! , Have faith ! Look what I’m gonna do ..

Jesus clearly states believe on what He can do for you . And He overcome everything with His mighty strength.

Hey , He’s not done yet

There is always a process for growth. Trust God in the process

It’s not easy you need to accept that it is not easy for you but for God with a snap of a finger He will give it to you.

No . He’s not making it difficult for you . He is teaching you to have faith and trust Him. He wants you to discover His strength through you.

If we look only on our own strength and ability, It’s not enough.

God wants you to discover Him on things you can’t do by yourself.

Heavy loads are for those who have strong backs.

Things seems hard for you because you are looking on on your own capabilities which is clearly opposite to what the scriptures says.

Proverbs 3:5

Trust in the LORD with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding;

He carried us on His cross the weight of ALL the problems and pains that we gone through and will be going through life has already been lifted.

Pray for strength if your faith is tested. If things aren’t going on your way.

It might be going on the other way and let it go to God’s way.

He is teaching you and shaping your character

Romans 8: ²⁸ And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who^[a] have been called according to his purpose.

God is processing you for His Purpose. He let’s you go through what you are going through so you will exercise your faith and will gain a lot from this experience.

There must be something He’s up for you 🙂

As the process goes He is definitely shaping our character for a purpose.

Our patience , perseverance , there is always something that we gain after hard trials on our life .It’s lessons , wisdom , ability, talent ,hope, faith, a good testimony to empower and bless others . Things that might not be visible but it’s within us and will remain in us in a course of time .

We are forged for a purpose

Zechariah 13:9 And I will put this third into the fire, and refine them as one refines silver, and test them as gold is tested. They will call upon my name, and I will answer them. I will say, ‘They are my people’; and they will say, ‘The Lord is my God.’”

I saw my dad forging an ax so he can use it to cut logs in the backyard.

I saw him working hard hammering the metal shaping it forging it on the open flame. That metal is not easy to bend but he continuously blow his hammer to make the sharp edge of the axe be honed .

And I saw How happy he is after he tested the ax on some logs and I remember he always use that ax.

We might be facing a stressful situation but remember that the metal getting forged in the fire , hammered with a lot of friction and shaped and sharpened to cut large woods.

This metal finally found it’s purpose from a piece of scrap to a cutting tool .

The stresses and problems we have in life is our training ground to God’s purpose in our life.

Finally , I hope this will help you my friend on what you are going through now.

I pray that you will get through with it with Jesus 🙂

Thanks

And again Here I am… I’m lost between the two spaces.

Hey  It’s me ,” said boredom. Oh come on! chill, look for mind stimulating things around you. A  Sudoku puzzle, a cup of cold coffee. And I got a pen which is hiding between the pages 78 and  79  with the unfinished puzzle 139. Tapping the pen till it became a  familiar beat of  a Morse Code rhyme.

Space number one — thinking of things that  could contribute to my ever wondering curiosity. This spaces are either blank or a nonsensical thought product of  uncommon glance in the ceiling like I am looking for something but actually I’m not .

Space number two it’s an option If i haven’t filled out space number one , then there’s no space #2. It’s likely spaces are created between words to understand it pretty well. But spaces do create an impression that you have no clue what comes after a word. Because in the first place you can’t explain the thought of the things that you want to write about.

Metaphorically speaking about  a  thought that comes after a thought. There’s a lot of Ideas going round and round my unstable mind.

I’m more preoccupied by what I am going to think about than things that I should be thinking about.

Here I am , The struggle is real..

INFP Problems.

Nevermind

Seems like life is a continues loop of events that so overwhelming. I always have this feeling of going back to zero and start all over again my strength was renewed but I can’t seem to carry my armor to go out. My scars remind me of the battles the endless fight to be better. The bloody war against myself is not finished yet. I fight the urges to get back to the old me again.

 

I lose track of my goals and my why’s I can hardly say that it’s good to purposely live and wait what life can offer you just because you are existing.

Nevermind —

Deep down the hollows

 

They say the stronger the tree the deeper the roots are. Everything has its own story and has a purpose for existence. Have you ever ask yourself about the point of your existence what this life really worth living for?

I have asked myself a thousand times 10 to 20 years from now what will I be? What will be my accomplishment with that span of years? I write some emails to my future self and If only she can respond and tell me and give me at least a hint of what will I be.

Am I be able to make it through life 3-5 years from now? So many questions sometimes I feel overwhelmed just by thinking about the future.  Unspeakable doubt and fear of the unknown. But God reminds me that he has a perfect plan for my life that’s enough to start my day ahead knowing He holds my future on His arms.

 

 

An Empty Cup is an Empty life

 

Some teacups are for display some are for drinking hot tea, which one these reached their purpose?

Yeah, you might be dealing with some sort of never-ending situation. And it seems like nobody understands.

Feelings and words have been so hard to verbalize. And you are looking around if someone would ever notice. And the weight of this burden has been overpowering that it shows subconsciously.

You try to fill in the void with all things that could possibly ease the unwavering restlessness. And the end of the day it’s always the same thing ” You’re Empty “.

Let me ask you ” Are you looking for your life’s purpose or Had it ever cross your mind?

If you knew it Are you pursuing it? — 

The answer: Both, some teacups are made for display because of the materials it is made of it is not for hot liquids. Some are made of heat resistant materials perfect for drinking tea, and you will never appreciate your tea without a good teacup.

Same as your life and your purpose, You might be dealing with something right now remember God will never pour a perfect hot tea to your teacup just to break you,He knows you can withstand it.

“And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love Him, who have been called according to His purpose.”.

Romans 8:28

 

Be grateful and ask God for the strength to carry on.

When you have nothing more to do

There would be times in your life that things seem to be out of your control. You are holding on to your hope and you get drawn near the edge of uncertainties. And Confusion sets it and blurs your focus. And you speak to yourself, I have nothing to do, nothing to say anymore It is what it is .. so be it.

As the song give me faith by elevation worship. I love the part ” where it says — I may be weak, your spirit strong in me, My flesh may fail My God you never will. The focus turns to God’s strength and as we are now. We have weaknesses on areas we can’t control anymore, focus n the areas we can — our faith, our trust our attitude and character towards our situations.

When you have nothing more to do — it’s now time to turn to God  who has something to do about it — It’s God, wisdom, God’s strength God’s Power.