The Friction tells it all

Ever asking why things seems so hard for you to go through ? And while for other it’s like effortlessly flowing perfectly.

Like you often questioning how life is unfair , you prayed hard you fought hard , you sacrificed a lot but in the end; things are slipping out from your grasp.

Indeed as what the scripture says Life is unfair ;

John 16 :33 “I have told you these things, so that in me you may have peace. In this world you will have trouble. But take heart! I have overcome the world.”

He did not state ,” Hey My child You can make it on yourself !,

He said Take heart ! , Have faith ! Look what I’m gonna do ..

Jesus clearly states believe on what He can do for you . And He overcome everything with His mighty strength.

Hey , He’s not done yet

There is always a process for growth. Trust God in the process

It’s not easy you need to accept that it is not easy for you but for God with a snap of a finger He will give it to you.

No . He’s not making it difficult for you . He is teaching you to have faith and trust Him. He wants you to discover His strength through you.

If we look only on our own strength and ability, It’s not enough.

God wants you to discover Him on things you can’t do by yourself.

Heavy loads are for those who have strong backs.

Things seems hard for you because you are looking on on your own capabilities which is clearly opposite to what the scriptures says.

Proverbs 3:5

Trust in the LORD with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding;

He carried us on His cross the weight of ALL the problems and pains that we gone through and will be going through life has already been lifted.

Pray for strength if your faith is tested. If things aren’t going on your way.

It might be going on the other way and let it go to God’s way.

He is teaching you and shaping your character

Romans 8: 28 And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who[a] have been called according to his purpose.

God is processing you for His Purpose. He let’s you go through what you are going through so you will exercise your faith and will gain a lot from this experience.

There must be something He’s up for you 🙂

As the process goes He is definitely shaping our character for a purpose.

Our patience , perseverance , there is always something that we gain after hard trials on our life .It’s lessons , wisdom , ability, talent ,hope, faith, a good testimony to empower and bless others . Things that might not be visible but it’s within us and will remain in us in a course of time .

We are forged for a purpose

Zechariah 13:9 And I will put this third into the fire, and refine them as one refines silver, and test them as gold is tested. They will call upon my name, and I will answer them. I will say, ‘They are my people’; and they will say, ‘The Lord is my God.’”

I saw my dad forging an ax so he can use it to cut logs in the backyard.

I saw him working hard hammering the metal shaping it forging it on the open flame. That metal is not easy to bend but he continuously blow his hammer to make the sharp edge of the axe be honed .

And I saw How happy he is after he tested the ax on some logs and I remember he always use that ax.

We might be facing a stressful situation but remember that the metal getting forged in the fire , hammered with a lot of friction and shaped and sharpened to cut large woods.

This metal finally found it’s purpose from a piece of scrap to a cutting tool .

The stresses and problems we have in life is our training ground to God’s purpose in our life.

Finally , I hope this will help you my friend on what you are going through now.

I pray that you will get through with it with Jesus 🙂


I asked God I’m gonna find me…

Tired and Burned out, I lost my fire to do things for God.
I have been into my worst and lowest self.
Into a nowhere ground.
I feel like I’m on the verge of a hill not knowing
If I’m gonna let myself fall.
There’s a feeling of being tired of everything, Tired of people.
I have been questioning everything in my mind.
Like I don’t know who I am anymore…
I’m lost, tired and broken inside.
When I asked God.. I’m gonna sail away to find me again.
He stands quietly with tears in His eyes He let me ..
I know I broke his heart
For how many times I ran to him in problems, trials.
He’s always there. He always has this special place for me.
But now .. I feel like It’s a burden to just remain in the same spot
I need new places, something different.
without looking to him I turned my back walk towards my small boat
Nervous with Shaking hands
I start to row without looking back
But I know He’s there still standing behind
I’m excited to see what lies ahead even if the fog is rising…
I reached the far end of the river I saw beautiful things
but it’s just beautiful.
I still feel empty there’s nothing here.
I remember God and cried, I miss Him, I miss Him so much all of Him.
.and the special place where He used to bring me under His presence
I repent in my heart and I know there’s no answer within myself
He is the God who holds the answers for everything
He knows what I need, He is the fullness of me of my being
as I started to row back to Him
My boat hit a sharp rock and I start to sink
I tried to swim on the surface but the current is strong
grasping for air I can’t swim.
I swallowed water, trying to swim over I shout as hard as I can
I called unto Him ………
I put my hands up so high
I’m SOOORRYYY!!! LORD !! I’m soo sorry LORD !!!! I will never do this again …
Please Help me,,, !!!
and a familiar figure of a man behind the fog showed up
as I start to sink someone grabs my hand to his boat
I know it’s Him.
He has been following me all the time
My child. You know I will never leave you
nor forsake you .. I will always be here
Please don’t go that far again.



Behind every visible colors


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What you see is what you get, that’s the most of us can say. Either revealing our true selves to others. And being mindful of our actions towards other people. But how this quote ended up on my piece of canvas. The 3 am thought might be real and this thoughts drives me to write something and seeing myself as it is.
Do I know myself  this much?  I can only see half of  it. Exposing only what is acceptable to others.
Because Being Mindful of how other people see us might not reflect ourselves. It’s a false pretension . We are  dealing with such things in social media.  And we are living in this era of  almost everything is photo shopped and  misleading.
People are aiming to be someone else and be unique to everybody.  I myself had been a victim of it. Being exposed to pictures beautiful faces, slim bodies, perfect figures. As what Sierra Burgess say  to her song  ” Rose girls in glass vases”
We are so affected and so full of  desired body shapes,faces. Wasting so much time  on our phone. Sliding into Dm’s of  strangers looking at their pictures. It’s like a piece of meat indulging into envious thoughts.
We aren’t aware of some cover up flaws that they hide. Behind every photos and videos. And how many concealers they use to cover the dark circles from sleepless nights.  And a void they try to fill in with acceptance and likes. Ending up wanting more. Life that can only filled with acceptance of people can be nurturing for them but for me it’s miserable.
And we thought of being real has a cost.
We are what we exposed to see. We are always looking for the other self, the other half that can fill us. Lies can be comforting in temporary reasons. But living a life that is full of lies can make us coward, confuse, It frightens our tomorrow.
We can only see half of people because they are living concealing the other half. Concealing the truth and sometimes we do the same.
Have you ever felt the same ?